“you’re not in your early 20’s unless you have an existential crisis every week.”
Life is so crazy.
One minute you’ve got a plan and the next you’re re-evaluating every life choice thinking what do I do now? Nobody told me that post-grad blues and anxiety were so real.
It all stems from the pressure I put on myself to be someone. To become the best I can be and knowing that my decisions in this moment will define that. Deep down I know that I’m scared that I’ll miss my shot because I didn’t make the right decisions or do the right things to get me there. Sometimes I don’t even know where to start and it stresses me out. Kind of like a cycle that keeps going and going and going…
But life has completely flipped on me lately. Things haven’t exactly worked out like I had planned and I’ve been forced to just let it all go and go with the flow.
Let go and let God.
And it is well…crazy. Sometimes I’ll freak out because I feel so lost but then I remember I’m doing the best that I can. I remember that everything happens for a reason. Following my heart and just doing without a plan, without fear of what “they” will say, without fear of messing it all up. I just do. No more worrying about where “I’m supposed to be” and just being grateful that I’m here right now.
That being said, here is what you should plan for:
More love. More ice cream. More puppy belly rubs. Concerts with your best friends. Posting whatever you want. Midnight drives to get food. Vacations. Friendsgivings. Drowning in self-love. Doing good. Wearing whatever you want. Deep belly laughs. Dancing in your room. Cutting the roots of self-doubt. Late night talks. Treating your self. Writing in the margins of your favorite book. Wine nights with the girls. Beer runs with the guys. Breakfast in bed. Breakfast for dinner. Drives with the sunroof open. More dreaming. More doing. More living.
Take all of the little rules and things you think you can’t do and tear them up. Do them. Don’t waste another second doing something you don’t like. Continue to be good and do good, even if the world doesn’t return the favor. The universe doesn’t owe you anything but that doesn’t mean we should stop being good.
Do more things that make you happy, do what you can, and everything else will fall into place.